It's been a while since I've posted a journal (almost a full year) or have been active on here other than uploading a drawing or two here and there. It's just kinda quiet here since most of my friends have moved to tumblr so I'm there from time to time, and because deviantART has become a largely a community of lurkers (guilty myself).
Firstly, I wanted to say thanks for all the love for my Big Hero 6 fanart! It's made me realize that not everyone's disappeared from dA quite yet, haha. And made me realize that people do like my art.
I've been really busy with school, especially with animation. You can see some of my animations on my vimeo here: vimeo.com/lucyxue
I barely have any time to draw anymore, and that makes me pretty sad. I've improved a lot since coming to college, yet I feel like I don't really have anything to show for it. Well, I mean, you can see a clear progression of style/skill in my gallery, but idk. Every so often while I'm here I'll start feeling confused about how I really want to draw, vs. drawing in a way that would get me a job. But then I wonder why I draw in this style anyway. Like... look at all the fanart I draw! I don't do it for school, or for a job. It's what I draw whenever I'm bored. But it doesn't feel like this is how I'd want to draw deep down. IDK... *lies on floor and has an existential crisis*
I just have this issue with being extremely indecisive and wanting to do everything. Wanting to draw in every style, wanting to learn how to do everything. Do I wanna be an animator, illustrator, character designer, fine artist, fashion blogger, independent filmmaker, craft artist or what? Because I want to do everything, but I can't... Not enough hours in the day... I barely even have time for hobbies here TT____TT
...This journal became depressing... OTL But I'm usually more positive than this. I'm just really burnt out since we're approaching finals week. It's been a challenging semester.
See you guys later!